Monday, May 28, 2012

Worth it...

Before I told "him" I wanted to compete in a figure competition I worried over how he was going to react and how I was going to master the temptation not to drink.  After I told him I wondered if he would really be supportive and make sure I didn't.

I don't have to worry about that anymore as we are no longer together and since I have no desire to be with anyone else there is no reason to go to the bar.

Ultimately though it's up to me not to fall prey to temptations and to always be dedicated in making healthy choices, after all I'm not being punished, it's my choice therefore it is my sacrifice.

It will hurt.

It already does but not the good muscle ache you might be thinking of.  I didn't want the break up but it is the right choice.

Working towards 10% body fat will take time.  Getting over him will take time.  I wonder which will take longer.

I know getting a healthier harder, leaner body will be worth it.

Finally getting on stage will be worth it.

I'm waiting to see if not being with him is worth it.

God I hate feeling this way!


  1. Sorry to hear about your breakup! Been through a rough one myself and thought it would never end. But it will eventually! Keep up the good work, I love following your blog and watching your transform - you are definitely one of my inspirations in fitness!

  2. Thanks Susan...

    I'm not sure what he's up to but he texts me good morning. Tells me he loves me and is asking me out to do things.

    Confused to say the least!