Monday, May 28, 2012
Before I told "him" I wanted to compete in a figure competition I worried over how he was going to react and how I was going to master the temptation not to drink. After I told him I wondered if he would really be supportive and make sure I didn't.
I don't have to worry about that anymore as we are no longer together and since I have no desire to be with anyone else there is no reason to go to the bar.
Ultimately though it's up to me not to fall prey to temptations and to always be dedicated in making healthy choices, after all I'm not being punished, it's my choice therefore it is my sacrifice.
It will hurt.
It already does but not the good muscle ache you might be thinking of. I didn't want the break up but it is the right choice.
Working towards 10% body fat will take time. Getting over him will take time. I wonder which will take longer.
I know getting a healthier harder, leaner body will be worth it.
Finally getting on stage will be worth it.
I'm waiting to see if not being with him is worth it.
God I hate feeling this way!