How could I let myself go?
Divorce, job and shift changes, nothing but excuses...
Eventually I got back on track.
After I lost 53lbs I met Vaughn the controlling bipolar boyfriend last November 2010. We belong to the same gym and once we started dating we began training together. I made a lot of muscle and strength gains but rarely did I find time to do cardio or eat right. Any spare time I had was spent with him. If he didn't do cardio I didn't. If he ate poorly and late at night so did I. Because of him I was sleep deprived and put 23lbs back on.
Honestly though BECAUSE OF ME I ALLOWED IT
The older I get the tougher it gets. I have a 25th high school reunion to get ready for by the first weekend of July 2012. When my classmates see me I want them to see that. I want them to see me the same way they WILL see me this July and again at our 50th!
If I had better self control I could have been closer to what you see down in the lower left hand corner but no I let myself go again! Now I have to work harder, it's crunch time!
WHY WHY WHY? My jeans are tighter, my dresses and skirts don't look right, and my tops outline a belly, not hug a figure.
Fat flabby and forty.
I'm disgusted with myself... BLEH!
***shakes head ***
FOCUS! Who cares about men? I need to WORK on me!
FEEL ME?
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